yeah

i was lost.. i started to recall back what my papa said when he was  at home…stil healthy and conscious… he said the bank loan no nid to pay.. he is goin to die soon.. that time i dun feel a thing.. i jaz scold him back.. "y said like that.. becoz of few thousands u curse urself, jaz pay them la..".. now i know my papa reali know he wil leave us soon..

when he was sick.. he did tell mama that he has to go 1st.. mama ask him wanna go where.. though she knew clearly what my father wants to indicate.. mama said ask them to give u more time.. but my papa ’s reply is this thing could not be changed… 

we dun keep in heart all the words said by papa… jaz hope that all he said is not true.. nv reali care about my papa’s feeling.. that he did struggle to tell all those things which eventually become reality..

papa always say he wants to go india.. the only place he nv visit be4.. wan c my big bro get married… his grand children are stil small.. papa is stil young.. y..who shud i blame.. blame the useless doctors.. blame my papa for giving up..blame for asking him go chen ming… y he choose to go when no one beside him.. and nv leave a word..

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